Failure or Time to Let GO…

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The last couple of months I have been tossing around feelings and mental processes in regards to what I seem to deem as failure/s on the road called My life. In this day many people spouting new age beliefs about there is no such thing as failure? Then why is it a deeply programmed system within us? Why does failure appear constantly in the back grounds of our minds playing out causing giant waves of guilt flowing over about everything we say, eat, do or even think?

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Failure
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Guilt_(emotion)

On this road called my life I walk “The Path”, The Red Road which I have learned from teachers of the First Nations People’s of many tribes. The road unlike new age is not meant to make you feel good, it is meant to bring you into relationship with all that exists and the long term is to bring you into complete and total balance, to the center of your personal medicine or wheel. Unlike a see saw a wheel pivoting on the center can become extremely off balanced with a wrong step, even small.

Take a round disked object and place it in the tip of your little finger in the very middle section make sure the disk does not have a hole. The Cherokee tell us that our wheel is suspended in the universe from the four direction edges that anything can break the string attached to each direction. You can see that your place on the wheel in the middle takes awareness, stability, attention because in one minute the whole wheel can fall from its balanced place. When the wheel leans to one direction because we lose our ability to be in balance because we have “checked” out in some manner something has stolen and is holding our attention or energy away from the balanced place in the center of our wheel which was holding everything in relationship to us in balance. This cheese if you will, will slide of the cracker. You will then have to work very hard to get that piece of cheese not only back onto that cracker but you will have to do it with will / attention because you cannot step off to gather the experiences or cheese to put it back on, mostly you will not have the awareness or attention by practice needed to complete such a feat.

So now we have another issue that comes into play called: holding on. Holding on is not the same as balance or center. Holding on is a reaction to the world we live in when what we do, are taught does not exactly work in our big picture of keeping what we want. It happened by our attention being grabbed away from our self, our balance, our center and yes we allowed it by not having constant awareness. We may feel we have been caught off guard this is a figment of our illusion of blame. We choose for whatever reason to be pulled off or allow ourselves to be pulled off by what we may also be called drama. When we take a bold step towards what has grabbed our attention, the wheel leans and the experiences, resources, relationships scoot to the edge when we see this we stop where we are so that they do not fall off, that we do not loose them and we begin an old pattern of holding on to. We stay that way sometimes for an entire life, never either allowing things to fall off into the abyss or to take a step back into balance. Holding on is a reaction to loosing what we have, however it is our blame since we were the ones that created our person wheel to become so far out of balance as to allow things to slide off. In a balanced place on the center of our person wheel there is not loose or gain and there is plenty of room for everything along the circle of our wheel. Where our bundles of experiences, relationships, resources are placed by spirit during our life and when it becomes full then we pass gracefully on to live again with a new wheel to fill up. Holding on is a reaction to loosing something or someone.
If our ability cannot retain it, hold on to it then we move into failure pattern. If we did not want it then we can in some cases let go and if we choose to do nothing we hold on never doing anything else but that until we croak. Never moving forward, backwards or allowing new experiences. Having full possibilities and potential comes from being at the center of your personal wheel in balance with all your relations, your relationships to everything here in this world. In the biggest part of this relationship can, will include your relationship even to the grass you mow in your yard, you know the one we put toxic chemicals on every year which is a step out of balance with that grass, a step out of balance with the earth and a step out of balance in our families and pets health. We are out of balance all the time day in and out have zero awareness because we have NOT the ability to hold the attention necessary to be in balance at the center of our wheel which makes us an observer in balance with all relations. Even the grass pays when our wheel tips. When we want more and try to find ways to manipulate this world, control this world, to force this world for say more money causes a huge out of balance with all the relations. Something will have to be offered to create a new balance on the wheel from the force of say the money to be brought on the wheel in an unnatural way. Something will have to suffer in the re-balancing, there is always a trade. Maybe the health of your child slides off the wheel because to tipped it in the direction of more money. Eventually your child dies because of that weight and pull that drove to the manipulation to misuse our energy, our attention and the tipping of our personal wheel. By the way our Wheel can cause the tipping pivoting of the Earths personal wheel because all of OUR wheels along with all living things on her are her relations and experiences. First Nation people teach me that you take something, force something and something else will pay for it to adjust or attempt to adjust the wheel back into balance.

Of Course we want what we want in that minute, that week but is it worth it in the end? Most will never know because there is not enough awareness to understand what you are trying to get versus the consequences down the road and what must be giving up. Everything that comes to you in a balance way jives with what is already have on your wheel and in your life and extreme force, conjuring will changes everything I have seen it wipe a whole wheel off, the loose of everything. You may, all of sudden get a slice of consciousness, maybe even get a blink of understanding of what has been done, but the two main stay patterns still exist in you and the strongest is that of going into holding on, do not take another step please god save my kid, but still cannot connect all the dots or adopt a center of balance to full see that your desires, want an attempts to pull them on to your wheel tilting it started to erase the child’s life from your wheel, from your reality in attempt to balance it. Then there is the anger that emerges because GOD did not save your child, because you created an out of balance wheel and the health of your kid was traded for more money, a husband, a house, another drink and whatever else we desire. I know that this seems like such a harsh way to put it but it applies to anything and everything we have a relationship with. We could lose our home in the same manner.

Please remember that I am trying to write about something that I myself have had to learn and most of this teaching does not have a language, it comes in a transfer from the teacher to the student. If it sounds like one hand clapping kind of dialog and you cannot grasp it, please just let it simmer in you and maybe it will become something from in you down the road.

The New Ager’s like to tell us that the choice is between fear and love. It seems like a simple choice; however in my teachings of what I have been taught fear is a byproduct. That our choice is to always be in balance in the center of our wheel and that is that, there is nothing worldly to gain like love or fear, good or bad ceases to exist and becomes the truth of being and is what it is, without all the labels or mess, clutter that this world makes up and we assimilate into the subconscious mind.

When something shows up that steals our untrained attention and we react out of fear which is the byproduct it underwent the deeper layers of emotion we could say or unconscious behavior, our auto pilot default system first. The fear, savior, do something always is the first defense what we do not usually see or feel are the under working chemicals / emotions that when we build awareness and personal work with ourselves will show themselves. So we have fear which is the first defense, the next layer down is the anger, which can flare up if the fear activation, the do something does not hold up. Then we use the anger default program and usually whatever made it through can be stopped once we over react, become a nightmare or wild animal. However the deeper level that most people will never see unless they do some heavy personal work is the guilt. The anger trigger is such a strong one that it keeps anyone including ourselves from every seeing the guilt, ever. We may feel the guilt as panic attacks; I feel that most heart issues are related to the guilt program that is like a gene of some kind of genetic program within us.
We live in a way that we cannot see the guilt and in some cases there is simple no vocabulary for it, I have found in my own life that it is a societal workings and early on in your life the training of it came in looks, grunts and other non vocabulary behavior from everyone around you. Which makes it that much more complicated to bring into a frame work of understanding. This guilt not only triggers the holding on pattern but it also triggers that failure process in us and in some case the giving up which is basically no different than the holding on. Since both of them stop any progress in any direction for a length of time or life time. When we can start to notice, step into the guilt which means we are going to have to feel it, sit with it, we are not going to be able to our think through it, since it is a non verbal arrangement. Our choice to break through so that we may gain some kind of balance on our wheel in ourselves is to sit with the suffering of it, the panic of it and do nothing, offer no reaction and each time we do so we let go of it a bit more, the hold it has over us. How you came to this place does not matter, who is to blame does not matter those are reactions, illusions the subconscious needs to throw up to keep you from looking and dealing with the feeling of intensity that guilt is and the chemical triggers that our brain under goes whenever the system is breached by such things that expose it.

What I am attempting to offer here is that when we move into, we react to, we get stuck places of holding on or giving up in the process of failure that is a chemical trigger in the brain causing it to seem so much more that it is, we should sit, even lock yourself in a closet if you must, hold yourself, breath and let it go. When your wheel of life has been leaning so harshly to one side and the people, relationships, resources are sliding off the end or about to, just step back to the center, hold yourself and let go of whatever it is that may be gone now, that may have slide off and know that there is much more to add to your wheel of experiences today, tomorrow by keeping yourself aware, not giving up or holding on as reactions to failure and the inner guilt. I leave with a pray. As I know this process is walking straight up hill with no visible path kind. You have to find your own way and keep trying until your wheel is in full balance and you are the center of your personal wheel and personal universe.

May you continue to bring yourself to the center of your personal wheel in a good way. May you become balanced with all your relations in a good way. May you learn to hold your attention to the place of balance with in you, thus holding the balance for all things here in a good way. May you find your balance in a good way to hold a piece of balance for our precious Mother Earth before it is too late.
So it is, so shall it be, NOW! AHO

Becoming a Helper to ease Chronic Pain…

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I have spent quite a bit of my time in the last 25 years participating, apprenticing, reading, studying, and listening to teaches from First Nation groups. Most of the hands on work I have done have been in the realm of medicine (man/woman) or shamanism. Though I am not an expert as it is a lifetime journey,  I would like to share some thoughts on the idea of physical pain, pain in the body, joints that have been brought on by more than diet, injury or disease.

I am constantly educating myself in the holistic approaches looking deep into folklore, oral traditions in the last 5 years to find answers and connections to what may cause the underlining condition of pain. As I dive deeper into what information I can find on such topics and when I can directly ask questions that sometimes do get answers it all leads me into great contemplation on the matters of health, wellness from an indigenous perspective and the stories regarding it.

Today I would like to just write about one idea. Their story/s or folklore if you will. This story is very old and literally goes back to when the peoples of the earth respected all beings and lived in balance. This story comes from the beginning when we humans stop living in balance with all living things and began to kill mostly animals taking far more than was needed. The animal kingdom made contracts with the people that they would allow humans to kill them for food, however this needed to be done in a sacred way, a blessed way, a right way to the animals and that the humans never took the animals lives for more than what was needed.

Though I have seen the sacred slaughter preformed and since I have only bare witness once, I have a sense that each tribe has a way of doing the sacred act and ceremony. I have attempted to find information on the internet to support the sacred slaughter so that anyone reading this might gather a better understanding but in the first nation communities most everything that has to do with ceremony is still not discussed openly, which I can agree that it is better that way. An average person could not understand the levels, depths, history, development required to fully get the totality of ceremony. The days, weeks spent in prayer before and after are challenging to the white mind that lives, breath, eats and lives fast and furiously. I am speaking of years of experience firsthand of what I have endured to understand such a small piece of it all. It for me has all been worth it but I have met many others who have felt this path was too difficult for them. I bless them in their search to find the right path, the right way for themselves.

The story is found, I am finding it in many oral traditions of why humans get sick and specifically one particular disease, dis-ease, illness and that is Rheumatism. I am posting what wiki has to say on the matter. Information for the reader.  http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rheumatism

The story talks about the contract with the people of the earth being broken by the people hunting and killing the animals, taking far more than they needed and I suspect possible selling or acquiring some kind of gain as well. The animal that was particularly upset was the Deer in most of the stories however the Bear Nation went with the deer nation as support to the Creator and Counsels to vent their grievances with the humans not holding their end in the bargain. In the end it was the Deer that set a curse basically across humanity since the humans would not listen and continued to take more than they needed while the disrespect of the animals became the norm. The disease that was set upon man by the animal nations for taking more than they needed, this disease is specifically mentioned by the Cherokee and other First Nation tribes as Rheumatism.

The animals had to create a disease to put upon the humans that would stop them, keep them from walking, hunting, shooting the animals.

I have been working in the alternative medical end for 30 years for income. Before that I healed bugs, animals and whatever else came my way. In humans the number one complaint it pain, chronic pain, pain of the physical structure whether it came by family history, nutritional fetal issues, injury/s, disease, poisoning, job related as the list goes on I think it matter not the story of how but maybe why?

About three quarters of my practice, study and treatments are for pain, chronic pain, it is 75 percent of the reasons why people inevitably come to see me.  They usually take a long walk through western medicine that offers them no remedy and has left them usually damaged, broken and pretty much destroyed. I am the last ditch effort people will try. Luckily I am good at what I do; the spirits guide me in the right directions for the people however it only works if I am in balance. Which takes a huge amount of work and effort on my part balance with the earth and all livings things is not easy. Like most there are days I would like to full check out, hide and ignore it all. Balance is a constant, minute by minute, daily check in of my inner world, which comes with being able to accept, surrender, as for help when I need it.

In the medicine/s of first nation people, the stories the humans are here to be helpers. We are the “Helpers” to this whole world, plant nations, water nation, air nation, animal nations, winged nations and each other. We are nothing more than helpers, but we have gotten so far away from helping anything or anyone. Helping ourselves to everything, taking and living in a unsustainable way seems to be the programming we are sold.

So I would like to offer a link to the past for those in chronic pain and those helping people in chronic pain. Maybe pain in the body structure “no” matter how it becomes or is acquired to be considered a symptom, a sign of taking too much? Consuming more than one need/s?

Maybe the possible cure would be to give, to start giving, helping wherever and whenever your road connected you with those in need of help? Instead of driving past or ignoring contaminated lots, homeless people, Not taking your family or friends in when they need help yet again. Maybe the soil, land around your house needs you to help it, to grow something in it? To stop applying chemicals that poison the microbial beings, birds, because we are too lazy or lack of respect to actually help the land, weeds, plants, bugs in natural helping way.

I know that is sounds simple, even ridiculous to some, but there has to be a starting place to the chronic pain and maybe that the animals were tired of being taken advantage of by us might hold some water? In the end people feel better, heal and are happier when they are giving, I have witness spontaneous healing in people who become passionate about helping in some way.

I have seen in myself having far less pain when I am giving, when I am helping openly and not with holding.

Being a helper giving more means you are open to finding the best possible place that you can do the best helping. Living sustainably means you use and need less, taking less and no matter what reason you come up with is a great place to be and with everyone helping we could turn this planet around in no time!

Tree Beings as Allies…

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Trees and I go way back, thousands of years (lifetimes). There  was a time when the Vedress People lived and I remember it. Anastasia talks
about this time period. You find many mentions of it in her books. I have an  indescribable alignment with word Vedress. The people of that time were in alignment with the all, the one in creation, co-creation together. They left us  libraries of information in megaliths. Information contained in those rocks  structure today. The Trees in certain areas of the world remember these people.

Trees hand down information to the plants through the root
systems, eco systems that develop around them and from the matter like leaves
that fall from them eventually eaten by the microbes into soil matter, breaking
down the information (matter) into a structure that can be taken in assimilated
by smaller beings. Taking in food, air, water is the same as taking in
information in our environment, part of us humans, animals, plants, trees and
beings that live in soil have programs within to decipher the information
without us even knowing it, our systems can adjust to what is. In some cases if
it cannot adjust, severe environmental issues like radiation it will kill us
when we cannot find the information to adapt to in our environment through the information we take in. That is why what man is doing to the planet is causing, will cause and extinction and most do not even know that is going on now.

I have always loved trees. I have had the great privilege of meeting many trees in their nature eco systems and also in the human made eco systems. Trees are the most magnificent beings on earth. Tree consciousness is ancient, patient and peaceful like a Zen master would be like if he/she was a tree. I have visited the redwoods in California and the information there was so old from a time that there was peace there. I could hear the inhales and exhales of those trees and the plants that grew around them worshipped them. The air was still ancient, moist; pollen rich like the whole earth was at one time. I read a book about the earth thousands of years ago and there was speculation that we humans had capacities in our lungs to breath in all the pollen in the air and live off it. it contained everything in it we needed. The air was rich with such food for us then. I suspect that this is where the modern ideas of breatharianism comes from when we could simply live off breathing even for water and food in our atmosphere. I have memories about that time on earth as well. I can remember running through green tall grasses and pollen is floating everywhere, the air is warm, moist and I feel at peace with all life around me. I never knew hate, anger, rage, and fear in that life experience. It did not exist we humans were one with the all, the one.

My first experience with a tree Spirit was on a fall day. 2005? I had a single size futon that I had made into a couch. I positioned it in the living room so I could lay on it and look out my window. I loved to look out of my second story window and contemplate the sky, clouds, weather and large trees outside of my apartment.

One early morning with coffee in hand I laid down on the futon I felt dreamy, drifting consciousness kind of “out of it”. The sun was shining through the window onto the lower end of the futon across the bottom half of my body which invited me to sink into the vastness of what I call the dreaming
state. I drifted on the waves of awareness for several hours in a hypnotic
state. As I was coming back into my body laying on the futon, I saw “it” it was
in the tree moving towards me.

In the large fully leafed tree outside the window I saw a cloud of energy form, this cloud of energy reminded me of a dragon. The long neck and head, it was twisting its neck around turning to look at me as it formed. I remember thinking; “oh my God, that is the spirit of the tree!” The spirit stretched out its neck aligning its head to make eye contact with me, I watched its mouth open and I knew it was going to talk to me! That is when I fully sat up, I almost screamed, the hair on the back of my neck was standing up. By the time I shook off the state I was in, the spirit had left.

I became a tad bit more respectful out in nature especially around trees. My inner landscapes changed after the first visitation of the tree spirit.

When you know that there is a conscious spirit being or soul in all livings things, deep reverence of all life takes hold.

I met lots of indigo kids in my line of work of all ages. There was a particular one who stands out to me, he is now an adult. He told me some really fantastic things about energies that he had observed in his life. He had been brought up in the city. He was tuned into energies that are in, surround cities in his younger years. The lower vibrational beings that come in inter-dimensionally use electric energy; they pull energy from the human made grid which brings them into this time and space. This electricity helps them to full form and operate here with us. They take over cities and the people who live
in them creating a mental illness state. Eventually they hitch rides around on
people called entities and can cause death. Sometimes these beings become
powerful and we may call them demons and they make there way into the bodies of humans. The concrete and black top blocks the earth energy and nature beings from being able to balance out the frequency. There is no real protection from these beings in cities. They multiply rapidly using the electric grid for the power source the need, like portholes. I have seen video of these beings working in our world via electric power lines; you can see them in full form at night around lights and places that emit great amounts of power.

There is information that I have read about that gives scientific basis for what the First Nation people knew long ago. That the frequency of the earth, which they call the heart beat of the earth and there understanding of aligning with it and it is practiced to this day. We can align ourselves with the heart beat of earth is simply by standing quietly, connecting, breathing gratitude into all living things and gently tap your chest where you heart is in a heart beat motion.

The indigo told me that he had to move out of the city and the first chance that opened, he moved to the forest and lives there today. The energy of nature is strong, the nature beings or forces hold the energy for all life, and they hold the thread of our world together and protect it. I feel that people who have negative experience in nature are themselves negative and are being scared out of sacred areas.

These nature spirits have no need to move in and out of dimensions. Their life is here on earth with us, attempting to teach us and holding the world together we experience as real. The more we destroy nature, the more we kill the good energies, destroying the world, their worlds and the lower vibs take over. Like attracts like: pollute a river and the nature spirits leave it and darkness falls in the form of entities who come in and keep that river hostage.  Dams I now
believe cause imbalances of energy life forms. Nature spirits can fix anything,
but we have to stop the damage we are doing in order for that to happen. We
loose power that is/was given to us to make the journey all the way, destroying
the ability of the nature world to keep the balance for us by allowing others whose energies are lower to rape our home of everything living and use all living and man made energy to do so.

I attended Biodynamic courses for farming and while I was there I took a course called Phenomenology. I have taken many classes, courses,
practices on pruning and taking care of trees. I prune trees with a focus on
communication, structure and health which includes nutrient issues of the tree. I study them before I prune them. During a Phenomenology class on trees I had a mind blowing observation about trees, the forces they live with and how these natural force/s play into everything about them. I would often return home after these classes sobbing. The shift in my consciousness and the awareness that came into me were often distressing to my beliefs or a relief of truth. Either way it was powerful time for me and trees.

Shortly after this class I had a dream about two trees that were the pine/spruce category. The trees moved around just like people with no visible features. The Trees took me into a barn and on the wall were jars of green liquid. The trees first discussed with me the medicine that can be gained by extracting the juice out of the leaves or needles. I would call this Tree juice in my waking state. I do not remember how to make it, did not come back to the waking dream with those instructions. Hopefully one day something will trigger the memory loose on how to make it.

The one Tree being was aggravated; frustrated with this world we were sharing. I could feel the anger directed at me. I got the feeling that the tree beings knew committing and coming into this world that the whole
human evolution thing was going to be a challenge for all beings at some point
and that point was now. One of the Trees was venting anger at me, I was trying
to full stay conscious in the dream while he was talking but I had a hard time
because the things he was telling me were trigging a shock to my current
awareness.

The Tree being said to me that all living things made a contract in the past to come to this reality for the highest and greatest purpose for the evolution for humans/souls. He said the rocks beings came from their rock world; the water being came from the water world or also known to some of us as the blue planet, trees came from the tree world and so forth until the canvass was created.

My understanding of the experience was that we are all the same, nothing is better than something else. Everything has power, awareness, consciousness and that life force is specialized from what ever world they come from. We are all aliens to this world, making it work and it is suppose to be together.

The Tree being wanted me to know that they love us and came here to assist us into the levels of consciousness, divinity that they are connected to.

Trees really are our friends, brothers and sisters, helpers and teachers; Scientifically it is proven we cannot live with out trees and plants. They provide us with oxygen on a planet being murdered by co2 and in some case food and medicine. Medicines that are yet to be discovered by us in the modern age, but are known to ancient societies and some still living today.
The trees breathe in the co2 and exhale oxygen. They are the lungs of our
planet! Natural purifying air filters.

Some of the blogs I write seem to be really far out there for some of you and that is okay, keep opening, listening and do not give up on yourself. Some questions that may be worth asking yourself: What happened to me?
What happened to the aware kid I once was? When I knew magic, nature and walked in the dream world?  When did I give up? When was the last time I was in the natural world just to observe it?

Today is a good day to find yourself a sacred tree my friend, sit under it for a least several hours, go there everyday for a week, allow yourself to surrender, rest, trust and let the tree being remind and regenerated you who you really are. You may even see its true self? Oh the  shock and awwwww!

All beings came here for friendship and as teachers for humans to play a game out called Earth. I suspect that in the past civilizations, farther back than we are aware of, a long time ago we were all one living together. What if salvation was returning back to the stewardship of nature and all living things? If God is the “All” then wouldn’t He/She be all living things? Then could we not see the hand of our creator in the trees, plants, stars, soil, seeds, animal/s including snakes? Why would we destroy what God created? Why would we? And knowing this why would we continue to be a part of the destruction of this beautiful place God made for us to in order to co-create with all living beings?

Maybe it is “we” that have to return to the garden of Eden within to enable our own salvation with God? Maybe we are the garden of Eden when we are in full consciousness? Maybe we can begin to know ourselves and God by taking the time to visit a tree and be open enough to listen?

Carrying some Snake Medicine…

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I want to say here in the beginning that anything I discuss is my experience, what I come to know by no means should be taken personally or judged as right or wrong. It is my life, a journey of becoming and sometimes I have help, a teacher and sometimes I have to rely on the Spirit world to show me the way.

I have learned in my spiritual travels about snake medicine carriers. Like Bear medicine carries, Snake medicine carriers are born into the medicine they will carry, the people always are powerful healers. Omens usually follow them from birth. In the days past there were snake medicine rituals, coming of age as a medicine man or woman. Basically a large pit was made, rattlers would be placed in it and after preparation and ceremonies the person becoming the medicine carrier of snake would dance until unconscious in the pit of rattlers. These people are bitten many times and by many snakes during rite of passage. Just like in the coming of age rituals and practices of ancient societies only 1 percent would die and it was said that it was the spirit of the person who was not ready to carry the medicine. Once the poison was taken in and transmuted the person had medicine that would transmute all poisons into the medicine needed for the cure. As you can imagine very powerful medicine people have and use snake medicine. I do not know believe that I fall into this category as I have not had the privilege of this ritual and to be honest I would have a heart attack and die before I even made it into the pit. I would need serious help to get over my snake issues. I have had my share of snake medicine rituals even though they do not seem as serious as the snake dance.

I think this should start with yet another story about my powerful great grandmother Billy. I know say this all the time but she is still to this day the most powerful being I have ever witnessed on earth in my life thus far. I have seen, studied with, lived with and witnessed many healers, shamans, medicine people, holy men and woman of all kinds. I have traveled and worked with as many as I can from all over the world, from many countries and yes there are many, many frauds. I have been extremely lucky as I seem to attract higher evolved beings to me in every day  life. Even I am astonished by where these beings/people show up.

Since Billy was my first teacher  I have based my experiences of others from the ones with her. I think everyone  has something to give, share, teach but few in this world have power, real  power and have done their work in order to have the power they have and the  ability to really practice “do no harm”. My Lakota Shaman/medicine woman  teacher in my early 20’s said to me many times that we must do everything we can in the physical world, doing it physically first and giving it everything  we have before we turn to magic to solve the problem we face. She said, “that we cannot use our power to get away from facing real physical life issues and must  use every attempt to resolve it as a normal person does”. This also keeps us from misusing power and using it against others who do not have the same level  of abilities which would harm them greatly mentally and emotionally. I later  found out that this is the path of the warrior. I also came to fully understand  stalking which is another conversation.

This story was told to me by my  grandmother the daughter of my great grandmother before she died, long after  Billy was dead. It happened to her when she was 8 years old. It was not really  a strange event to her she had ground up with such events and was not concerned  even as a kid. My grand mother went on in her adult life to be a real prophet.  All the women in my bloodline are very powerful in many ways.

My great grand parents moved to  the back woods of Colorado,  I have no idea exactly when it was a long time ago. They moved into an old  cabin. Shortly after arriving there my great grandfather started working for  the railroad leaving Billy alone there with 2 kids. For the first year Billy  would talk to the snakes living under that cabin in a den. She had noticed them  not long after moving in when the chickens, cats, rabbits were showing up dead.  Billy’s big concern was that of her kids. People in that time period food supplies contained eating and raising small animals. Though she was a powerful herbalist  and could heal anyone of anything she also practiced the same principles as my Lakota  teacher. Dealing with matters physically and not waiting until you have to use magic to solve it. Same exact lesson applies here.

Billy told those snakes every day to move on, move out from under the house and move far into the woods. As the months passed her message to them became more serious. She told the snakes that if they did not leave within a certain amount of time that this land was  now hers that she would remove them in a way that would not allow them choice. My  grand mother said there was no playing outside because of the rattle snakes and there domination of the yard and everything in it. However she said the snakes never attempted ever to come in the house.

Finally after about a year Billy felt that she had given the snakes enough time, she was ready to do what she must and it was time to use the spirit world to do it. My grand mother told me that Billy packed a big can of food and water as if they were going on a trip. Billy was distant that morning. I know now that she was moving into another state of awareness the one in which we magic lives. Billy took my grand mother and her older brother outside to a big tree far enough away from the house. Billy told them to stay there, no matter how long it took that when they were to move she would come and collect them. Billy returned to the house sharpened a knife, chanting and went under the cabin. Snake after snake was brought out and the head was cut off. You may feel pretty disturbed by this story but in my family these kinds of events were pretty normal. Billy had rendered the snakes powerless against her by working in the physical in asking them to leave. She had waited until spirit said okay it is time to manage the snakes. I was told that it went on for an entire day, not one snake bit Billy. At the end of the day Billy piled the dead snakes up and burned them letting any other snakes know that might have escaped her that that this will be their fate if they do not leave soon. No rattler was ever spotted near the cabin as long as they lived there.

When I was growing up the only dreams I had were always with snakes. I have to report here that I hate snakes. Not only hate them but I am terrified! Why did I get picked or chosen to be a snake medicine carrier? It is the biggest practical joke ever I am the biggest chicken ever! In my night dreams I deal with snake/s, in some dreams I have carried them around, the snakes also would bite me for no reason, snakes kill people and family members as well. When I snakes kill people in my dreams, I know in the near future they are going to die from something that cannot be healed. If I had any kind of dealings with snakes like in my night dreams when I am awake I would need meds big time.

My mother told me that when I was little a group of kids told me to hide in chest so I did. The kids through massive amount of plastic snakes on me and locked the chest. Though some of the trails and rituals of snakes medicine were not equal to a snake dance I feel that I did experience enough to forever change me and maybe not in good way.

The last part of this blog is a dream I had and how it manifested into my waking world. Though there are many stories I could tell about my relationship to snake this story is waiting to be told.

About 6 years ago I had a dream. In the dream a friend of mine was giving me 4 rattle snakes. I would never touch a snake at lease one alive or accept 4 as a gift in the waking world. My friend in the dream someone I do not know in the waking dream of every day life tells me that I need to find something to put the snakes in to take with me. I look around and I find a vibrant white large man’s tee shirt. We Put the snakes 3 large rattle snakes and one considerable smaller rattler onto the tee shirt wrap them up, we stand up and the bundle is handed to me. My friend leaves. I have the bundle held out with straight arms. I was clutching the bundle of snakes with both hands. I can feel the snakes moving around and even for a dream disturbs me in a way that I have to find a place to sleep, to lay down and I know this will take me to another level in the dream to deal with what is happening. My conscious mind is having trouble in the dream. I walk into another building. This building has a dark grey concrete floor, walls are vibrant white and there is nothing in this building. I find a room where there is a camping/hunting sleeping lounge chair set up it is high enough off the ground that if I let the snakes loose for a nap they cannot get to me. I check the doors of the room the gap under the door was not wide enough for the snakes to escape, this is great news. I am so tired in the dream I need to lay down. I release the snakes out of the tee shirt and lay down falling fast asleep. I woke up in the waking world freaking out that I had let those snakes go! How was I going to get them wrapped back up? Touch them? Get off the bed? Then it hit me it was a dream! I have never forgotten that dream it was the farthest “out of” character for me I could possibly get!

3 years after that dream I was living in the desert, down a long dirt road. One day when I was out walking I came across a dead, perfectly squished and flattened snake. Upon closer inspection it was also perfectly dried, though it was pretty small I could tell that it was in fact a baby rattler. I spent several minutes inspecting it and then the corporate decision to take it home was made. I was going to take it home and put it next to my owl wing on my alter. There was still part of me uncertain about the whole snake matter even dead. I walk around the area looking for something I could put the snake in to carry it back to the house. I find 3 feet by 3 feet pretty beat up vibrant white thick piece of plastic. Iput the flat, crisp snake in the plastic wrap it up and with arms out stretched proceed to walk down the dirt road to the house. It was about them I literally almost vomited! The dream was happening exactly. I got the snake home, I put it on my alter and lay down on the bed next to it passed out from the stress of all the realizations, just like in the dream.

Though I have many dreams about snakes, I also have many dreams that are omens in some way happening to me in real life. This dream has always stood out and has been was one of the most powerful ones I have ever had, so far. This dream caused a shift in me. It may have finally been the moment that I accepted the path of the healer. I have to tell you I have been in the healing field for 25 years at the time. I just had not accepted snake, the poison and had not been the vessel from transmutation until then. It was also the moment that I knew that spirit was in charge totally and all things that happened in the waking world were a cause from the night dream world where spirit rules. I firmly believe that God or Great Spirit talks to us at night in the dream world; it is where life and death, waking and sleeping meet.  It is where we are open have less complicated beliefs that stand between spirit and ourselves.

I still have the snake in my box of medicine. This box travels with me to do my work. I use my work in shamanism with snake as my transmutor for land, water, soil, homes, offices, buildings, people, animals, insects, winged beings, companies, corporations literally anything and everything needs transmutation. At some point, some kind of medicine is needed to change the poison or energy into the medicine and become the cure for the change desired.

Tobacco as a Vehicle for Prayer…

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I want to first off again let you readers know that I am not first nation blood. There are many tribes all over the world with similar and sometimes not: ideas, beliefs and practices. Today I am writing about my ideas, beliefs and practices that may be similar or not to those of first nation person/s. My work in creating, crafting, building my medicines is my own. I have had the pleasure of learning from many people who walk in the dreaming realms, shamanistic, medicine/s circles and spirit worlds. I have developed my own work based on the similar things I have learned. Sometimes a teacher has been present and sometimes not and during those times I had to build on what I had already known. I have come to respect traditions when necessary and understand that sometimes I am on my own and I have to make it myself by working with Spirit creating my medicine tool chest that is used for myself, animals, other people, air, sky, wind, plants, trees, soil, earth, buildings, you name it! I just do not want to pretend to be something I am not. I also want you to know that you can create your own medicine/s and how you use them. Building the steps towards what ever medicine you desire to know, by creating friends with it. Pray is always a good tool in letting the living being/s you are working with know you are serious.

Right now I am going to discuss “prayer smoke”. Tobacco is the medium in which the prayer is carried to the creator by spirals of smoke floating up. Tobacco is very serious business maybe one of the most important medicines used. I have tobacco heirloom seeds of several varieties and once I start farming will be planting, growing, harvesting, and becoming friends with, learning about its medicine with a desire to grow my own sacred tobacco for ceremony.

Currently when I buy tobacco I buy it from first nation stores. I buy the organic across the board. I buy high quality I am using it to send a message, a request to Great Spirit or God, I never cheap out on Spirit!

I have been in situations where a serious prayer was seriously needed and had to use a cigar. It was high quality Cuban. There times where sacred is what you make of it. That is what happened here.

I was always against smoking. My mom smoked pretty heavy and it just never felt right to me, made me sick when people in my generation smoked in the house, on planes. It was bad news! When I began working with tobacco it was usually added to smudge. It was usually some group purification event so many people used a pinch of tobacco, prayed into it and added it to the pot of smudge. I also would add lavender, jasmine, rose flowers, other types of herbs into the mix when needed like in a house blessing.

After that I started using a loose leaf tobacco blend for offerings to land, front door areas, water, especially when going into a place like a vast forest I would offer before I stepped onto a the trail. I use the tobacco offerings in a way of saying hello, I am here, I am friendly, I honor you, by the way bless you, I am listening and I come in peace!

Several years ago I was asked to do healing work on a powerful woman. Her name is Heather. She wrote a book about her experience as a white woman married to the last dreamer and chief of the Yaqui nation. The book is called the Queen of Dreams in case you want to read it.

We would begin the session with pray smoke. Setting the intention for the session and calling in Great Spirit. Her prayer was for what she needed from me and my prayer was for the best I could be for her. She taught me that it is okay to use cigarettes for pray smoke. She preferred a smaller cigar type. It is when it all came together for me. Now I use loose leaf, or premade always organic and always in alignment of the highest pray and good. I never smoke, when I smoke I pray.

Mediums all over the world have used smoking as a way to intice spirits from the other worlds into this one for the purpose of communicating. I do not do medium work I have found I can connect in to God and get what I need to know there.

Back in my manic days when I did not understand walking THE PATH and giving everything to it. Back then I was more into trying to control my reality, life that was constantly a mess of drama and chaos. One day up and the next down, an emotional disaster I was even if no one could see it. I think most everyone I knew and this applies to today was so caught up in their drama of trying to force there life into a form they could live with always around money, the fantasy that was projected onto us by mind control experts through TV, food, society that project on to us what we should be, look like, what to wear and if we did so we would fit in and be so unbelievable happy! Bullshit’a’rony big time.

I began the path of my people when I was born into this world. I did not formally accept the path until 23 and it was not until my brain tumor that I fully complied with living fully in a conscious way, a ritual way, a ceremonial way, hour by hour, moment by moment. Eventually it comes down to dying the physical death or the shamanic death, rebirth, resurrection to BE the person I came here to BE. My life is all about my spiritual work which has mostly been emotional work until now. Once I gave in I could finally see what prayer is, means and why I must do it. Before my prayers were all over the place. I asked for things to be the way I wanted them, not in the way they needed to be for the full evolution of my spirit. When I began prayer smoking I had paragraphs of words while I attempted to hold intention and attach them to the smoke in the form of prayer and I wondered why it did not seem to work for me. Why God was some how not listening? Maybe there was no God, no Creator? Everything was way too complicated because that is what I was, complicated.

Steps I take: I find a good energy place outside to sit or stand in. I pick up the object I am using for the pray smoke. If I was given the right to be a pipe carrier and maybe some day I will I would use the sacred pipe putting the tobacco in it carefully with full attention and intention of my prayer. I am using my own rolled cigs or bought ones these days. I will hold the cig to my head focus of intent and then to my heart and focus of intent. Then I call to the 7 directions I hope to write a blog on my experience with the directions in the future stay tuned! Next I light with matches; this is another sacred idea here. Only use that which is or comes from a living being. Matches come from the standing beings which are tress and are consider very sacred and what they bring to light the pray. Then I began pulling in the smoke and intentionalizing it with my intent and blowing it out allowing it to flow to the heavens, most the time carried by the wind. Then when I am done I usually put whatever is left into my sacred jar for keeping. I never leave any medicine even used anywhere. It is mine. I might need it down the road even the smallest bit.

The tobacco plant has the most beautiful flowers that smell out of this world good. The flower is white and looks like a vessel and bees love it, honor it. I have spent a good length of this life to learn to honor tobacco, to trust, to settle down in a uniform intention and pray a prayer worth praying. The more I settle in and trust, the more I find there is only one prayer that is worth praying, worth intent, worth sending a smoke signal to the heavens and is worth it to Great Spirit and that is Thank-you. It is all I send these days, it is a simple intention held during the duration of the pray smoke and it is really the only pray that matters for me these days. I have nothing to prove, to conjure, to do as my ego slips into the unified self and I am everything in this moment as I surrender into being. The Thankfulness that I have reached in my life, some sort of sanity and my need for anything becomes less and less. I am everything and all there is left to do is thank God for my life, for my being when I feel prayer is needed. When I feel the desire come from within to light up my sacred tobacco, hold my intent in my mind, heart and with every cell emotionally aligned into full being producing in harmony the being’ness of thank you. As I send my pray smoke to the Spirit of all things with Thankfulness for creating me.

 

 

Run to the Sun…

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Today woke up early this am before the sun was up. I walked out of the apartment building across the road to a vacant lot and watched as the first rays of light coming from behind the mountain sprung up into the clouds. I have to say that today was the most beautiful Sun rise I have ever seen. Maybe one of the first sun rises I have been fully present for ever. I am becoming ever more present as I live and everything continues to grow deeper levels awareness that I can see in visible forms and it is glorious!

When I woke up before the Sun I knew I was going to be writing this blog on my take on the run to the Sun today. I want to let you know that I am not of first nation blood. I practice Shamanism and the first nation practices that I have learned. What I state in the blogs is my own take on these systems of power that I have used for my own healing journey. Please do not take what I give as the full truth, the only truth and when trying some of the practices be open with them and allow them to teach you. In all things there is medicine in the form of energy an in order to really know you must make friends with it. This medicine covers clouds, sky, Sun, plants, earth, air, colors and all that you see, feel, hear and come to know. The friendship has to be accepted. You have to show proof of wanting to learn about the medicine by committing yourself and time. You have to show up, be present and open. Americans minds are not geared in long term and we have a hard time focusing on one thing for duration of time. These kinds of practices can aid you in being present, in the moment and committing yourself and making new friends with powerful healing abilities and knowledge you would never find anywhere else on Earth.

Today we are going to explore our new friend the Sun who is a powerful alley to have. By doing this morning practice you can increase you daily energy. It is an amazing healing tool when sick for any level/s of illness and disease. It just might be the medicine you have been missing. Once the Sun being accepts you the light will change when approaching the Sun in the future you will be in a different range of awareness or dimension/s of reality. It takes practice to get it right, get you right with the Sun. I am going to add something here that is a suspicion of mine. You can take this for what feels right to you the reader. I believe that people who get skin cancer are not aligned with the Sun. You are fighting the Physical sun and not aligned with the ether and astral aspects of the Sun which is the spirit force in the Sun. We spend days out in the day under the sun, very rarely it is for bliss of your relationship with the Sun and usually zero acknowledgement of this being who gives us life on earth. Our human bodies require vitamin D it is one of the essential nutrients we cannot live without. Vitamin D prevents many cancers and many other illnesses we get due to lack of Sun exposure and collection of vitamin D in our bodies. After years of doing my modified practice the light of the sun is not dimmed but has a different way about it and it is because I have moved into the light of Sacredness with the Sun who heals me, teaches me and gives me health. I became friends with the Sun and now I walk in the Sacred light of knowledge with it.

This is a practice done by the Navajo first nation tribe. It was told to me. It is done by waking up early before the Sun comes up and running, jogging in the direction of the rising Sun. You constantly face the direction of the Sun rise while doing this, never turning your back to the East, to the Sun. Stop running after the Sun has fully risen. You then bend over and touch the earth with your hands, grounding, loving energy and gratitude for the Earth Mother. Then raising your arms up above your head, palms open and facing the Sun you allow the Sun to penetrate you.

This is where my practice comes in since I know it much better than trying to explain something I have not worked with as much. In the end the common aspect is the teacher and that is the Sun.

I had a brain tumor, other health issues that have been completely healed. I used diet and healing practices. Since I could not run, I woke up, went outside and faced East in the mornings waiting for the Sun to rise. If I was up early enough I would have a tobacco pray/s smoke. I am not a smoker I strictly use it for prayer and ceremony. Pray Smoke is   another topic I will discuss at a later blog. The key here is modify, do what you can. The intention is what matters most. Your intention to be there waiting for your friend that is bringing you healing energy and your daily information from the cosmos. Like a computer down load, but you are the hard drive and the Sun is providing you the new and latest health app. This gives your whole being information you need about the changes that take place daily on the ether, astral and physical planes of our realties. This information your cells, DNA, RNA take up and your systems respond making adjustments needed to adapt to the environments happening all around you.

By the way the ancient, first nation people know science; they know what is happening when they do these practices. Be very careful in your thinking about these people, they know things that science is only on the verge of knowing!

Okay so here we go with my version of this practice.

I wait for the Sun to rise, I stand there and if I am not feeling well when I do get up it is the first place I go, outside and face the Sun. I bend over touch the Earth grounding myself and sending gratitude. I stand up facing the Sun with arms raised and palms towards the Sun. I allow the astral energies and the ether energies to penetrate me and sometimes I see it in my inner mind or inner sight as waves of flames usually orange and yellow in color. These Flames move into me, all over me to all my places and spaces. Also into my energy field/s and energy bodies: emotional, mental, ether, astral, chakras………..all of it, engulfing me in an astral fire. You may notice similar experiences as you do this practice, be patient it takes time.

I am not engaged with the part of the sun you see in the sky, but the energy, forces, astral and ether parts of the Sun in the sky that dance with my energy parts.

Lastly I gentle grab handfuls of the energy off the Sun and rub it onto parts of my body that need extra energy. On my head, my heart, back of my neck, lower back are areas that I pull energy to and place it on by rubbing it onto. It may look like what smudging ourselves does, with more reaching out, pulling and grabbing the ether and astral energies towards me and then rubbing on to the areas that need a bit extra. I know from working with my own body that areas where there is tension, tightness are areas that have blocked energy and this is where I will work the Sun energy into. I always thank whatever medicine I am working with. Not just a Thank You but a Full, whole hearted, healed being Thank you.

That is basically how I do it, however there are twist, turns and more to my private practice that is not for sharing here. It is part of my medicine and so there are parts of my practice that I will not share. If I give you too much information you will not be able to have your own experience/s in making friends with in this case the Sun. It is vitally important in building your own medicine, your own understanding, your own healing to know from within and you can only do this by doing it for yourself.

I Need to Become a Warrior…

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The elements of the way that make up strategy of the warriors are the elements of the way with a heart, which allows then to derive enjoyment from each moment of time. Making use of will, control, strategy, and the awareness of impending death, warriors learn to reduce their needs to nothing. They realize that needs engender wants and misfortune. Hence, being free from need, there are no anxieties or worries. Warriors can act without the weight of need, anxiety, or unhappiness. When they cease to need, there is not compulsion, so they can involve themselves to any extent required. Free from the need, all that they have and receive – even the smallest, simplest items-become marvelous gifts; and life, regardless of how much is left to them, remains in a permanent state of abundance. ~Viktor Sanchez

One of the main themes I see in people whether it is in business or personal is suffering and anxiety. People have not been equipped in this modern day age on how to deal with such a fast paced world. Especially in America where money, being seen as a person of wealth and status is the most important of all needs that drives us. We have lost touch with the nature of whom we are and all the ancient knowledge and practices to help us to transform into who we really are.

I began to read books on the practice of being a warrior when I was about 14 years of age. I can look back down the line connecting my present moment to my past and see one factor that is totally visible to me in the process of needing and wanting. It is emotional maturity. I am shocked daily by people who have not gained emotionally maturity in dealing with the world “in the fact” or structure and truth of what it is. People cannot communicate from a place of truth or emotional maturity and either run from the situation, create a drama in which they have the justification to leave the situation or hid and pretend for the best. All of these situations for me fall under the passive aggressive behavior mold which many of us have been trained in since our birth giving our power away to “authority” which has become everything and everyone outside of us.

People are so emotionally disturbed by the fact that the reality they are living in is not the fantasy they continue to live in their minds. How could I be so stupid? I had no idea this was going on? What was I thinking? It keeps them from seriously dealing with important facts and truth that puts them more often than not on the path of destruction not the path of manifestation. Warriors learn early on to develop the critical thinking mind. We are taught that we need the critical mind to help us on the magical road to other worlds and is helpful in dealing with other beings we come across so as not to completely frighten yourself to death. When the critical mind is not developed there are fantasies, fears, a lack of personal power and the ego running the show. For me the critical mind is my adult parent who views everything the way it is without the icing on top. It is the part of me that has taken the longest time to develop and being honest here it the part of me that I am still working on staying consciousness with. The critical mind for me is the parent of the inner child or what we call the heart. The inner child was never made to run the show by itself. Would you in all honesty allow a 5 year old to drive your car to the park? Then another question we must ask ourselves why is it running out lives? By allowing the heart or inner child to run our lives we are damaging the inner part of who we are in ways that some do not recover.

The inner child is a part of us that dreams loves unconditional, touches the divine, moves through worlds and dimensions but does not make rational or well thought out decisions. When it is allowed to run the show and the world around us does not respond back to the inner child in the way it believes the world is then we can witness and feel the emotional damage. Words that come up when this happen are: betrayal, lying and fraud. The critical mind sees, hears, tastes, senses, touches, it is the left hemisphere and right side of the body which is ruled by male energies. The inner child or state of affairs of the heart which we know as dreaming, fantasy, unlimited potential, divinity all of which is found in the right hemisphere, left side of the body and it is the female energies.

We are looking for this union between ourselves because we lack the basic emotional tools and practices of spiritual nature in the unification of the self’s, selves in each one of us. The “need” which is constant as we try to pull everything outside of us into us trying to gain the feeling of together, unity, connection and belonging. However we are doing this from a fractured being, trying to: fill our needs, get our needs met, get our self together with the illusion in what we call the outside world. This is the cause of all issues related to emotional maturity and drives us into constant states of distress, chaos, drama that unfold instead. It leaves us exhausted, weary, diseased and afraid. Intimate relationships are most prevalent in the work I do for seeing into the “need” of the separation of selves which cause disassociation on many levels if the outer relationship does not go the way that the fantasy in our head is playing out. How could it go well when the relationship is basically 2 eight year olds playing house?

Would like to mention that anger, rage, violence are the reaction that is released by the person who is being used to create a whole person for a fractured person. They are also unaware that they were pulled into a relationship with a person that was fractured because on some level “like attracted like” and they themselves have fracturing as well. There is a point however that is reached no matter it if be a relationship, mother and son relationships, job, business partnership when a level of being used reaches a maximum in one of the people involved. They usually do not know exactly what is taken place but they feel tremendous anger towards the person whom they have bonded in a fractured way. Need comes from the fractured self and the lack of a critical mind to parent the inner child, keeping it safe from harm. When we are unified beings the critical mind works hand and hand with the heart or inner child. The child creates the inner ideas, feelings to produce the manifestation of this inner projection and the critical mind designs it by adding the physical and sometimes technical parts of the equations to bring it in and hold it into our reality.

If your inner child can imagine new worlds, touch the divine and bring into awareness dreamed realities then need or want is obsolete. What you may be missing is the critical mind, the observer, worker, and the part that puts the puzzle together with its own hands. In you are the Creator and the Maker you just did not know this. When you build your critical mind you become emotional mature as you find everything has a solution you just have to be present, see it for what it is not what you want and then get down to the work of changing it. You will eventually move away from need and want because you are no longer fractured, emotional hungry instead you will be creating your reality.

Leading the sober life of the warrior gives a person the equilibrium and fortitude to deal with difficult moments on the path of knowledge, regardless of the confusion suffered by reason or the injury caused by ego. ~ Viktor Sanchez

Reason or “the voice of reason” is a projection of fear, ego that has an agenda. Reason is not the same thing as the critical mind or critical thinking. Suffering from reason is just that “a reason”. Critical thinking is observation, evolution of facts / truths and not emotions. It breaks the chains of bondage to our illusion/s and the powerlessness to inter act with it at all.

Use your mind, critical thinking, question everything and choose the events you want to use your energy on, “making” your life what it is. While your inner child has room to be the creator, dreaming up possibilities, tucked in safely with the divine on the edge of imagining new world/s for all of us.

May you move towards your fractured self with unconditional love from the inner child, May you align your fractured parts into a unified field of being, and May you become the Creator and the Maker of your own reality!

Unconscious Imprinting…

 

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This is a photo of water that was placed in contact with a cherry blossom and then frozen.  I would have to say that a cherry blossom has a beautiful effect on water.

I woke up early this morning with the idea for this blog, something I feel is seriously important if we want to have a conversation about food — clean, green food.  I am not going to go into all the aspects of how we and the things around us imprint on water.  You will have to click the links to study that information.  Most of you reading this may have already had some experience with the water imprinting process.

http://www.whatthebleep.com/crystals/

http://www.unitedearth.com.au/watercrystals.html

What I want to discuss is that every living thing, which includes soil, contains a certain amount of water.   Human cells are 65-90% water.   Many plants have an even higher water content.

If water has a sort of “memory” and can be imprinted, what does that mean for living things that are made up largely of water?

Research done by Russian scientists, including Leonid Izvekov and Vlail Kaznacheyev,  shows the serious implications to us, our planet, the water around us that we drink, and the food we eat.  Watch “Water: The Great Mystery.”  (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GlWboI_0obk)

Now, if we can imprint water with thoughts or energies, and everything that is living on the earth, including ourselves, is mostly water, what has been imprinted on this water in our food that we do not know about or completely understand?  For me this is a no-brainer.   I have spent the last 25 years doing “Energetic and Structural Medicine.”  For others, it may be a hard idea to swallow, and that is OK.  I see energy and the imprinting of it as the source of what makes us better or what makes us sicker.

A few years ago I was sitting on a porch eating an apple.  It was an organic apple, one that I purchased from Whole Foods.  As I was munching along I became sad, down in the dumps, with a feeling that the whole world was wrong and unfair.  It had been a perfect day.  I had been gardening — digging in the dirt, which is the closest to Heaven I get here on Earth.  I had drunk plenty of water (which I began imprinting with joy starting in 2006), and had just stopped to rest and have bit of lunch, which included an apple.

I began to explore my own mind looking for signs, thoughts, old issues surfacing, something creating a trigger in me for this sad feeling.  After scanning all possible data for what the source might be, a stroke of insight hit me square! The down-in-the-dumps trigger was the apple.  Someone had imprinted the water in the apple!

I know that my mouth must have been gaping open something like a stroke victim.  I started seeing a mental picture, a timeline of events in the life of this apple, and it went backwards.   I saw the apple handler at Whole Foods taking it out of the box, thinking about his life.   With each thought, the apple was imprinted with information and emotion.

The next image was of a worker picking the apple in South America.  I wondered how he had been feeling when he picked it.  What was the imprint on the apple at that moment?

The last flash was of the land owner of the orchard where the apple was grown.  He was crying.  Maybe someone had died?  Maybe he was afraid that the bank was going to take his land?  Maybe he was just tired?

For the past two years, I’ve been thinking about imprinting whenever I am choosing water-based food. When I choose an apple, I now ask my higher self to help me pick the apple with the highest amount of nutrition and the highest imprinting of love and joy.

I am learning to farm, so I now prefer food from the farms I go to.  I know where what I am eating is grown, who it was grown by, and sometimes I get to pick it myself with the highest amount of love imprinting I can muster. This is my number one reason to own my own land and grow all of my own food.

Imprinting your own food after you get it home may be the next best thing you can do.  I suggest doing it at least twice.  The first time you take an item out of the bag, hold it, and using green heart-energy, send it all the love you have. Then, when you are ready to eat or cook the item, do it again. You will have the greatest effect on what you are putting in your body by your own imprinting.

When I water a garden and I have to use city water, it worries me.  I turn the situation around by praying, sending waves of love and thought to the water.

My desire is that every imprint on food be one of love.  As soon as seeds are planted, they begin to take on water, so from day one you can imprint with whatever you desire using water.  If you are struggling with illness, grow your own food and imprint it with healing light and love.

When I was raising meat birds I would spend time making sure their every need was taken care of in a loving way.  I blessed the water for them.   I imprinted them with thoughts and words of how beautiful they were.  Before I slaughtered them I honored them, thanking them and hugging them with love.

I feel that the energetic imprint is much more important than the nutrition factor.  So what if your apple’s nutritional level matches the highest standards and it was grown organically?  Was the person who picked it hung over?  Angry?  Overworked?   Unhealthy?  Stressed out?  For me, the overall value of the apple would be determined by the imprint; I really do not want any more anger or unconscious programming.

The work I do imprinting my food is the only thing I can control about it.   That can be enough to give me hope to run that extra mile during grim time

A Fly’s Medicine…

 

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http://spiritlodge.yuku.com/topic/861

There is only one link on this blog — I bet you are all relieved. The link takes you to a web page that tells a First Nation story about the fly. Fly’s wisdom (below) was copied and pasted from the website:

Survival
Multifaceted vision
Ability to change waste into valuable assets
Transformation
Adaptation to the harshest environments

As of late, I have been floating along more in a right-hemisphere parade of information and deep inner being. This blog is about a real event that happened three days ago. It was the moment I finally, completely understood Fly medicine and allowed the Fly-doctor to do his work to help me heal some energy I had been carrying around for a very long time.

Fly is so small but so powerful!

Three days ago when I became a friend — true friend — to Fly, I was in the middle of a nap. I had just drifted off when Fly came into my room. I have no idea where he came from or where he left for.  (It’s just like those spirit guides to show up, do their work and leave.)

He was a larger fly, close to the size of a horse fly.  As he rambled all over the room, I started to get irritated. I began to notice my body tightening up as he crashed into objects and the buzzing seemed to get progressively louder and louder. At one point the buzzing was so loud, I could feel myself starting to get angry.

Immediately a sense came over me that Fly is my helper — helping to clear up, to transform old, dead energy. I felt a need to let Fly help me.

Fly spent much of the time bouncing off the mirrors in my room. It was as if he were flinging himself against them. I could hear thumps as Fly made contact with each mirror.  I remembered what I had learned a long time ago relating to the magic of mirrors — an energy I had not worked with in quite a while.  Past teachers had recommended not to have mirrors in the house, but that if I did, I should keep them clear and make sure my intentions were placed on them.

Fly was clearing the energy in these mirrors.  I could feel the change.  I could feel it shifting like magic, pure magic.

It was another moment in my life where Great Spirit was reminding me that I am never alone, that everything in my life is helping me, taking care of me, and that I just have to allow it to unfold.

Looked like Fly was helping me in my highest and greatest good.

Once Fly was done, I took that nap.

Later on that day I had a meeting. On the way, driving down the road, I noticed that each woman I looked at reminded me of something about my mother. There was a young, pregnant woman who reminded of my mom (and perhaps what she looked like  pregnant with me?).  After years of ignoring everything about my mother, of scratching off every thought about her, I had finally healed this life-long pain. I had allowed Fly medicine to transform this old, dead energy into something else, something so alive.

They say that when you heal, you can see God in everyone and everything. I know that this is true, as I have begun to see my mother in everyone!

As I make my way back to the land, growing food, my relationship to the Earth, my relationship to the “Mother” — Earth Mother, Sea Mother, My Mother, all Mothers — is begining to create a new energy of aliveness and life. I can allow myself to “birth” new life and creativity as I accept that I am the “Mother of all things.”

The last image I want to share is of the “Trash Heap” from the Fraggle Rock kids’ show from a while back. “Trash Heap” was the wise old woman seer, the oracle that all the characters went to consult, the Knower of All.  Flies love trash heaps; they love compost, which is an organic matter trash heap, too.  I love compost that much more, now that Fly is my teacher, helper and friend!

A couple of videos from the Trash Heap live! So funny!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=04Zz-GRPAzA

Energy Screening…

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Since energy is my forte, I spend most of my time studying energies, fixing energies, changing energies and sometimes adapting energies.  The focus in this lifetime for me includes the training I’ve received from teachers, mentors, and other assorted helpers which mostly centers around energy and how to handle, adapt and change it.  It reminds me in a fun way of Mickey Mouse in the movie “Fantasia”.

One of the most interesting energy usages comes from a technique I learned from a Lakota medicine woman that I apprenticed with for over a year when I was about 23 years old.  ”Screening” is the name she used for this technique.   I learned her technique and over the ensuing years, I have modified, developed and adapted it so it can be used in a variety of situations.  It is Energy Medicine, a powerful remedy to cure the undercurrent of issues/ideas which we tend to battle out of a belief that they are somehow out of our control.

When you first start working with this idea, thought, imagining, you’ll want to use creativity.  Make it your own; own it.  Imagination utilizes the right hemisphere of  the brain, present moment, the God part of the brain, if you will, to activity work,  divinity magic in the world of solid form (left hemisphere).

I have added a few links so you can get a visual image of the kind of screen I create.   These links should give you some guidelines when creating or visually thinking about designing your own screening method.  Since I’ve been working with screening for a while, I have become extremely proficient to the point where the beings I work with on other planes actually shoot the images into my mind.  This direct connection actually bypasses much of the early work that I used to undertake to get the information needed.

The screens can be as large as you can imagine for the task at hand.  For example, let’s say you’re screening your yard because you have excess insect issues.  Your screen may be as large as the area you need to cover.  On the other hand, if you’re using a screen to work on a mouse, you may come up with something that resembles a tea screen for steeping tea.  Over the years, I have used a wide variety of screens of every size and shape.   Sometimes they have a tight mesh and sometimes they’re wide open such as links in a chain.  The colors of the screens can also vary depending on the energy needed.  I always allow the beings to show me what we’ll be using as far as size, mesh, color and type of material they’re created with.

When screening you are crossing over into a 64 dimensional level.   You are clearing energies that in the beginning you may not see.  In the beginning, you may need to imagine more, create a bit more in your mind.  Eventually you will grasp it and it will no longer be as much work.  The being(s) who can assist you are what you’re  comfortable with.  Use a being that you trust or feel good about.  Examples for these beings and the physical forms they may take are entities such as angels, mythical gods, fairies, elves, light rays or light balls.  Choose whatever you like, whatever makes you feel you have the help and support for the work you need to do.   Everyone’s work and choices will different.

Questions are often good.  I actually use screening for most of my work.  When I am working on a person, animal or a piece of land, I may have no idea where to start or what will be the most helpful for this situation.  I will often ask the question, What does this person, situation need?  What is being blocked here?  To what level is the person, structure clogged?  What is the best use of screening right now?  A voice or a thought will produce the answer.  Sometimes the answer may be short and sweet.

Next, two things can happen.   One scenario is that I will call in my light beings team to show me and help me create the screen or screens needed.  The highest number of screens I’ve ever been involved with at one time is 74, one at a time.  In most cases only one, two or possibly three are needed.

Sometimes the light beings team may show up on their own and notify me of a job or a screening assignment.  I help them by forming it and bringing it into the physical world and just act as an anchor at times.

Another important item that I should mention is that, at least in my work, the screens are usually some kind of metal such as  platinum, gold, silver, or material combinations that I cannot identify.  The screens look different, feel different and are a variety of colors.

Now for the mini blog demo.

I have a dog that I am not sure how to help. I ask a question to my light beings.  “What kind of screening is needed to help this dog”?  Then I may hear or see an image.  In my make-believe scenario, let’s say I get the message, “In the tenth layer the dog has picked up a disease from its human”.  This would mean to me that the dog took on an energetic disease for the human, for whatever reason, a long time before it manifested as a 3-D or third layer disease in the body.  I would prepare for the work by visualizing or seeing my light beings. We would create the metal, form it, and color it.  We would make as many screens as we needed based on the beings who handle the tenth layer to clear not only that level or layer, but all 64.  Each screen is made individually for different reasons.  Then together as a team we’ll put our energies into the screen by lifting it to the top or at the end of the 64 layers.  Sometimes, for whatever reason, I cannot get there on my own.  So I will put my energy into the mix and wait for the screen to come into my visual levels.  As the screen drops through it clears, cuts out, repairs, and evens out all of the issues that we’re clearing and focusing upon.

Each screen has its own time frame.  I have found that the tighter the mesh, the longer and slower it moves down.   Conversely,  the larger the mesh, the faster it moves.  When the screen has moved all the way down or through, then there’s usually a “cleaner being” who will take the screens to be transformed later on into something else.  The energy is just transformed. I will ask them to sweep up areas of debris that I do not want in my space after I’ve finished my work.  I also make it a point to have my work areas  “professionally cleaned” by the spirit world.

A woman who was also involved with the medicine woman at the same time as I was “back in the day” actually was the person who used the screening on her yard. She was having serious issues with bugs taking over everything she planted.  They kept eating everything and nothing would survive.  Our teacher advised her to try to screen them out.  Sure enough, after a couple of hours of using the screening methods, the number of invading insects started to decline.  The next day they were completely gone and did not return.  She had cleared the energy at the level that was causing the issues with the insects.  On another note,  a family of doves moved in the next day, multiplied and stayed for years.  Obviously, the clearing brought in help and support by the birds as well.  The possibilities are endless.

Give it a try, let me know how it goes.  If you have any questions, please ask me.   Also, if you find any new uses for screening, please let me know as well.

Happy Screening !!