My current run-in with Moth reminded me of the earlier works of Castaneda.
The picture I took from an old mining house, the perspective of how large it looked on the window, and the landscape behind it really brought on the memories of the Moth Carlos had battled with early on. Just like in the Bible of many of the characters battling and fighting angels, I often think that may what we see in the mind’s filters, projections that keep our mind’s beliefs in check. One person has an altered reality and battles a giant moth, another an angel, another an alien. what if the outside force we are all battling is the same but our minds change the picture of what we are seeing for its own benefit, control system?
From the Wheel of Time with attached PDF book
This series of specially selected quotations were gathered from the first eight books that I wrote about the world of the shamans of ancient Mexico. The quotations were taken directly from the explanations given to me as an anthropologist by my teacher and mentor don Juan Matus, a Yaqui
Indian shaman from Mexico. He belonged to a lineage of shamans that traced its origins all the way back to the shamans who lived in Mexico in ancient times. In the most effective manner he could afford, don Juan Matus ushered me into his World, which was, naturally, the world of those shamans of antiquity. Don Juan was, therefore, in a key position. He knew about the existence of another realm of reality, a realm which was neither illusory nor the
product of outbursts of fantasy. For don Juan and the rest of his shaman-companions – there were fifteen of them – the world of the shamans of antiquity was as real and as pragmatic as anything could be.
This work started as a very simple attempt to collect a series of vignettes, sayings, and ideas from the lore of those shamans that would be interesting to read and think about. But once the work was in progress, an unforeseeable twist of direction took place: I realized that the quotations by
themselves were imbued with an extraordinary impetus. They revealed a covert train of thought that had never been evident to me before. They were pointing out the direction that don Juan’s explanations had taken over the thirteen years in which he guided me as an apprentice.
Better than any type of conceptualization, the quotations revealed an unsuspected and unwavering line of action that don Juan had followed in order to promote and facilitate my entrance into his world. It became something beyond speculation to me that if don Juan had followed that line, this
must have also been the way in which his own teacher had propelled him into the world of shamans.
Don Juan Matus’s line of action was his intentional attempt to pull me into what he said was another cognitive system. By cognitive system, he meant the standard definition of cognition: “the processes responsible for the awareness of everyday life, processes which include memory, experience, perception, and the expert use of any given syntax.” Don Juan’s claim was that the
shamans of ancient Mexico had indeed a different cognitive system than the average man’s.
“A petty tyrant is a tormentor,” he replied. “Someone who either holds the power of life and death over warriors or simply annoys them to distraction.”
I very rarely discuss or go into detail in my life about specific events where I have been mental, emotional, verbally abused, and physically.
Currently, however, I feel it is vitally important to explain such an event and bring a perspective most never quite understand which means you can never innerstand.
My desire is to creatively bring my experience and knowledge to help others change their stories about abuse and how if they deal with it.
A redefining is necessary certainly for each person who is caught in the battery of others. Usually, the batterers are cowards, who need to dominate, control and we could say to keep someone enslaved but it is much more sinister than that regardless of the batterer or the batterie knows this. It is a battle over energy, vampirism of sorts. One person needing energy that he cannot get on his own, he feels that he is losing to another person whether this person is a baby, child, woman, another man, animal and he in his last attempt will dominate with what works best on the batterie. The dominator needs to drain the batterie and consume that energy into themselves, feeding off the life essence of another by assault. We can see this play out in issues like adrenochrome and children where they are beaten, assaulted, tortured, kidnapped, and right before the die of fright are drained of their blood and the adrenal tissues removed and dried for later consumption. Adrenochrome is a drug, the blood of the batterie consumed to create youth in the person who takes it.
There is what you may consider lesser and more extreme abuse and domination by the batterer or petty tyrant. However, let’s be clear NONE of it small or large should be taking place. We must redefine for our own self what we consider abuse, a line in the sand our personal boundary of where we take action and stand up for ourselves in whatever manner necessary. This is where our alarm, red light warning goes off in us and we bring ourselves to the present moment to notice what is taking place and preparing for battle not allowing our energy, life force to be drained out of us and consumed by another.
Years ago I was in therapy and one of the most important moments of that period is when the therapist asked me what abuse was? What does it look like? How does it happen to you? How has it been done to you? How did you react?
There were years in me of: do not tell anyone, no one will listen, do not speak unless spoken to, and visually seeing women around me abused regularly and being taught this is normal. At this point in the therapy, she asked me to go home and work on MY OWN personal definition of how I would define abuse. Took me months at 20 years old to come to a conclusion of the totality of everything abusive in me, around, what I have witnessed, heard, and allowed.
My definition, my red light warning, my line in the sand became this, “Anything that makes me feel less than a human being.” To this day there is a clear line for me where the action is necessary. I am going to briefly describe the event that happened and I am going to add the name/s, date, and locations of this event.
After doing some shamanism work after this event and weighing out the choices, I decided that I was not going to report the event to law enforcement because 1) they never actually do anything about it, 2) They end up turning it back on you and I am not about to give up a bunch more power and energy to this kind of nonsense. After a couple of days of pray, recovery, and healing, being open to using this as a stepping stone for others and also using this situation to not allow the players to get away with anything, bringing to light their darkness and behaviors. In case they ever do anything like this again to anyone else or have already this is documented in a way that it is known.
Bring the darkness into the light, I have learned this by being conjuncted by pluto on my sun. Pluto is constantly destroying to allow for the light to penetrate and expose. Remember that this is about you first and your inner workings, beliefs, feelings, events, memories that need to be brought out of the abyss we have placed them in. Once we can look at ourselves honestly even the bad, the ugly then and only then can we define words with new meanings for ourselves and stand up, confront and deal with them in the real-time present moment when our own inner alarm is set off.
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“The new seers, in accordance with their practice, saw fit to head their classification with the primal source of energy, the one and only ruler in the universe, and they called it simply the tyrant. The rest of the despots and authoritarians were found to be, naturally, infinitely below the category of a tyrant. Compared to the source of everything, the most fearsome, tyrannical men are buffoons; consequently, they were classified as petty tyrants, pinches tiranos.”
On my Birthday December 18, 2020, a man named (assaulter) Billy Dale Wellesley @2955 Lakeside drive #325 Reno, Nevada 89502 attacked me. Before I knew what was happening he grabbed me by the neck his thumb on the left side of my neck, after the first grab his eye shifted and there was excitement on his face as he leaned in closer to grab harder another deeper grab and bent me over backward over the kitchen sink. He then punched me while strangling me by the neck into my stomach and as I attempted to rotate away from him still holding me by the neck, he continued to punch into my back. Lastly, he still strangling me by the neck maneuvered me with a leash in hand that my dog was attached to out the door, he released his hand on my neck I was not clear of the door before he started slamming it on me as it crushed different parts of my body until I was outside the door and he slammed it shut.
Having keys to the unit I re-entered and an ever sicker moment when he realized that I was not going to allow him to steal my power or dominate me came over him and he ran towards me with open arms saying, “okay, now time to forgive”, I looked him in the eye and plainly stated with power, Do Not Touch Me and Get the Fuck Away from Me.
Meanwhile, his son had been there (accomplice) Billy John Wellesley his address 2955 Lakeside Drive #215 Reno, Nevada 89502. He was 3 feet away from his dad attacking me just watching like a baby preditor learning a skill from his predatory parent. Later when I asked the son why he did not help me, he said that “women need to be slapped around to be shut up”. I was shocked by this statement and upon questioning him further about such a statement he felt that it was the man’s job to slap, beat, harm, abuse a woman into submission, and to shut up.
I am leaving out details that are not important. The important facts here are no one should ever hit another person or animal, nothing, ever, period end of the story. A man should never attack anyone, especially someone smaller than themselves. Lastly, other men, people in the vicinity should not look on at such abuse taking place and should actively step in and stop it.
Until we change our world view and beliefs, change how we define words, change what we accept, and voluntarily participate in, then we can never personally change and we can never be free.
As a sovereign free being, I do not assume that the system is going to help me, it will not, in a sovereign system you handle things yourself and in the common law court of the republic through the USA constitution I would be allowed to call these men into question in the court, a jury of my peers, the people of my community would fill the court and would hear either side making a determination of facts. There would a righting of the wrong by fine or by deed. Since common law courts are few and far between as a sovereign free human being I cannot rely on the corporation system to help me. This is why I am writing this blog, to make sure that these men are known, that these men are not allowed to do such a thing again, and to make note of this event.
Billy Dale Wellesley (male) approximately 72 years of age and his son Billy John Wellesley (male) approximately 47 years of age Mother of Billy John Wellesley Mary (Joseph) Debord all living in the Reno area. Mary and her husband are international arms dealers: https://www.nnbw.com/news/machine-gun-factory-under-way/
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Miguel Ruiz, Tolec linage of Don Juan, Talks of this in a profound way. He refers to the “ of the world” as the mitote, fog or the drama that is unconscious survival and habits of the daily day after day mundane, head down working for egoic or materialistic goals.
A modern example is from the movie the Matrix, where Neo knows there is more than his daily existence, he feels it, he touches it in his daydreams but he can’t grasp it with his mind. As the movie progresses he learns to see beyond the mundane of daily habitual functioning and move in the world without being a part of it. He learns the truth of existence.
Many eastern traditions refer to it as “the veil” and once one pierces the veil and sees the truth there really is no going back.
Through my shamanic training, many years ago I underwent a profound transformation which included the piercing of the veil I had to redefine all my action and interactions with everything and everyone in the world. I chose to redefine myself as I related to the 3D existence. The ability to hold awareness in 3 foci and dance the dance between Spirit, Inner and External worlds.
Duncan Eades, Studied 7 years under Master from Toltec Lineage
What exactly is Mitote? The concept can be confusing and vague.
The outside dream – the world – is full of unpleasantness, drama, violence, fear, war, and injustice. Fear and false beliefs control the outside dream.
Because we’re integrated strongly into this outside dream, our personal dream is also ruled by fear. The agreements and beliefs we store in our heads stop us from seeing the truth – that justice, beauty, joy, and freedom can be our personal dream
This inability to see the truth is a fog of perception the Toltecs called a mitote. The mitote clouds our vision, so we can’t see who we really are. We can’t see that we’re not free. We create an image of who we should be in order to be liked, loved and good enough. But this image isn’t real.
We even harm ourselves to be accepted by others. (Think of the teenager who takes drugs or starves herself to be accepted, or of someone who stays in an abusive relationship.) When we accept self-abuse, we learn to tolerate abuse from others because of an inner belief: “I deserve it.” A false image of perfection makes us reject ourselves and others.
Mitote, the chaos in our minds, leads to misunderstandings and misinterpretations. We simply don’t perceive things the way they truly are.
Mitote is also caused by gossip. Gossip spreads, whether it’s being mindlessly repeated or spread intentionally as a calculated effort to bring someone down. The contagious poison of gossip creates what the Toltecs called the mitote. The mitote is defined as “the chaos of 1,000 voices all trying to talk at once in the mind.”
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“This moment humanity is going through can now be seen as a portal and as a hole.
The decision to fall into the hole or go through the portal is up to you.
If you repent of the problem and consume the news 24 hours a day, with little energy, nervous all the time, with pessimism, you will fall into the hole. But if you take this opportunity to look at yourself, rethink life and death, take care of yourself and others, you will cross the portal.
Take care of your homes, take care of your body. Connect with your spiritual House.
When you are taking care of yourselves, you are taking care of everything else. Do not lose the spiritual dimension of this crisis, have the eagle aspect, that from above, and see the whole; see more broadly.
There is a social demand in this crisis, but there is also a spiritual demand. The two go hand in hand. Without the social dimension, we fall into fanaticism. But without the spiritual dimension, we fall into pessimism and lack of meaning.
You were prepared to go through this crisis. Take your toolbox and use all the tools available to you.
Learn about resistance of the indigenous and African peoples: we have always been and continue to be exterminated. But we still haven’t stopped singing, dancing, lighting a fire and having fun. Don’t feel guilty about being happy during this difficult time.
You do not help at all being sad and without energy. You help if good things emanate from the Universe now. It is through joy that one resists. Also, when the storm passes, each of you will be very important in the reconstruction of this new world.
You need to be well and strong. And, for that, there is no other way than to maintain a beautiful, happy and bright vibration. This has nothing to do with alienation.
This is a resistance strategy. In shamanism, there is a rite of passage called the quest for vision. You spend a few days alone in the forest, without water, without food, without protection. When you cross this portal, you get a new vision of the world, because you have faced your fears, your difficulties …
This is what is asked of you:
Allow yourself to take advantage of this time to perform your vision seeking rituals. What world do you want to build for you? For now, this is what you can do: serenity in the storm. Calm down, pray every day. Establish a routine to meet the sacred every day.
Good things emanate; what you emanate now is the most important thing. And sing, dance, resist through art, joy, faith and love. ”
Resist – Be reborn
Knowledge-Once you SEE IT you cannot UNSEE IT-Perception
“I said that a warrior selects the items that make his world. He selects deliberately, for every item he chooses is a shield that protects him from the onslaughts of the forces he is striving to use. For that purpose, you must have a selected number of things that give you great peace and pleasure, things you can deliberately use to take your thoughts from your fright…
The things a warrior selects to make his shields are the items of a path with heart.”
“The recommendation for warriors is not to have any material things on which to focus their power, but to focus it on the spirit, on the true flight into the
~God does not exist in space and time. He is superior to spatiality, temporality, and causality. The three operative factors in ordinary experience – space, time, and cause – do not apply to this Supreme Absolute Essence mentioned up to this time.
~Thus, samadhi, or samapatti, is the subjectivization, so-called, of these objectified objects which you have been thinking of as standing outside. Nothing is outside you – not even a tree. Then, what to talk of God? The God that you think of in your mind in whatever manner is also with you, beside you, in you, and yourself. Whoever thinks in this manner shall be provided with everything – everything, whatever you can conceive. Here is a verse from the Bhagavadgita: ananyāś cintayanto māṁ ye janāḥ paryupāsate teṣāṁ nityābhiyuktānāṁ yogakṣemaṁ vahāmy aham (Gita 9.22). Everything that you need will be provided to you – not tomorrow, today itself – if your mind is united with the endless resourceful universal content which is inseparable from you. Do not say it is outside you. Remove this slogan that everything is far away. Nothing is outside. The samadhi that is spoken of in the Yoga System is nothing but the removal of the idea that things are far away. They are not even one millimeter away from you. There is no distance of a spatial nature between you and anything.
In It the being, Its cosmic consciousness, and Its omnipotence, all were without differentiation: ever-existing, ever-conscious, ever newly joyous Spirit. In this Ever-New Bliss, there was no space or time, no dual conception or law of relativity; everything that was, is, or is to be existed as One Undifferentiated Spirit. Space and time and relativity are categories of objects; as soon as a human being sees a planet hanging in the sky, he conceives that it is occupying dimensional space and existing in time, relative to its place in the universe. But when there were no finite objects of creation, neither were there the dimensions of being that define them, only the Blissful Spirit. (…) Spirit, being the only existing Substance, had naught but Itself with which to create. Spirit and Its universal creation could not be essentially different, for two ever-existing Infinite Forces would consequently each be absolute, which is by definition an impossibility. An orderly creation requires the duality of the Creator and created.
The man of cosmic consciousness, never feeling himself as limited to a body or as reaching only to the brain, or only to the cerebral-lotus light of a thousand rays, instead feels by true intuitive power the ever-bubbling Bliss that dances in every particle of his little body, and in his big Cosmic Body of the universe, and in his absolute nature as one with the Eternal Spirit beyond manifested forms. The man into whose pure hand his divine bodily kingdom has been wholly delivered is no longer a human being with limited ego consciousness. In reality, he is the soul, individualized ever-existent, ever-conscious, ever-new Bliss, the pure reflection of Spirit, endowed with cosmic consciousness. Never a victim of imaginary perceptions, fanciful inspirations, or “wisdom” hallucinations, the superman is always intensely conscious of the Unmanifested Spirit and also of the entire cosmos in all its bewildering variety.
Bridgette Lyn was trained and has developed her own Shamanic Blow that does very similar things to Don Juan Matus’s Blow. The hands-on mechanical part is different. Essential for moving out of the first attention and overcoming the stuck point in the energy body. Assemble point shifting to shift focus and get point of focus connecting to other fumes/strands of consciousness. This kind of assemblage point movement, shamanic blow, a reboot can arrest the disease, cure addictions in the First Attention and over time help people to access a higher state of consciousness that connects to where ever they want there focus in their fumes/strands to be. This is done in complete and total sobriety. Bridgette does not recommend using dreaming medicines to shift consciousness for the long term, but proper reboots, moving of the assemblage points, shamanic work, and practices for the long term and assurance of bypassing the First Attention.
So you can be in the world but not of it.
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